i love her because she moves in her own way
thought i knew you for a minute but i don’t anymore.
i hold onto the night you looked into my eyes and told me you loved me
it’s only been a day and i’m already so sick of feeling like shit.
why the fuck
if i’m lucky maybe someone else will give a shit
"at least i don’t have to pretend to like him any more…"
in a perfect world i guess i won’t be alone forever
"hey you! yeah! you! lani person! call me if you ever need anything, really. at any time, day or night."
- (10/30/2010 12: 01:48 AM) Sunny Pruthi: art thou tiredeth, maiden?
- Lani: a little bit.
- Lani: idunno.
- Sunny Pruthi: this all just seems so sudden
- Lani: what do you mean?
- Sunny Pruthi: idk, it was like, i go on facebook, boom lani's going out with a dog
- Lani: haha
- Lani: yeah, idunno
- Lani: i kinda saw it coming i guess. the fact that he basically ignored me all of yesterday after school pretty much tipped me off.
- Sunny Pruthi: :( thats horrible
- Lani: yeah, whatever. it's fine. i should know better by now.
- Lani: at least i'm not like SHOCK HORROR
- Sunny Pruthi: like -GASP-
- Lani: yeah
- Sunny Pruthi: but like
- Sunny Pruthi: was this like a sudden kind of stop or was it a gradual drift? im guessing they both hurt...
- Lani: i don't even know
- Sunny Pruthi: :( <3
- Lani: i'd started to notice that i started feeling stupid and awkward because i kept being so happy to see him and talk to him and shit
- Lani: and he'd be, not sad or anything, but he just seemed more apathetic
- Sunny Pruthi: isnt he always?
- Lani: and that was kinda ouchy in and of itself
- Lani: idunno
- Lani: yeah
- Lani: that's what i mean
- Lani: he'd often still text me first, goodmornings or just hellos and such
- Lani: but yeah. that started to stop, so
- Lani: yeah.
- Sunny Pruthi: awh lan...
- Sunny Pruthi: im sorry
- Sunny Pruthi: you dont deserve that, didnt i tell you frosh are no good?
- Lani: i know you did
- Lani: and i know, like i understand that he's the one losing someone willing to put in effort for him
- Lani: and i'm not losing much
- Sunny Pruthi: youre losing...jack
- Lani: i just still care so that's upsetting
- Sunny Pruthi: he's losing...YOU. thats a big deal
- Lani: awh sunny
- Lani: thank you
- Sunny Pruthi: its okay
- Sunny Pruthi: e-hug
